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[samantha_grey]

[Samantha leaned in a bit closer when she sat down. She'd have a chip in a second. there were cold drinks set out, since as usual she tended to go a bit too spicy. On the upside, she'd gone for 'mild' by her standards.]

It's no problem. I can only imagine how much you want to just do whatever to forget about the crap for a bit, or have someone to talk to.

[splendid_solitude]

I'm used to not having anyone to talk to, but its just frustrating to not be able to remember things from when I was a kid. Like I know there is some reason I care about that brat Shinji, but I can't recall what that reason is.

[She shoveled a few more chips into her mouth before reaching for something to drink.]

[samantha_grey]

[Samantha finally took a bite while Asuka talked, nodding at what she said. The photo of her mother was set out on the table, where she'd stared at it almost every night since she'd forgotten her face. It was easy to understand.]

I could tell you what you told me, but I don't know that that's what you want. Even if you 'know,' you won't remember it, so it feels almost worse. Like not knowing the face of someone you love.

[splendid_solitude]

[Asuka didn't know how to respond to that. For the last week she had tried to remember her past through sheer force of will, thus solving the issues like she did most problems that came her way.

But the fact that she couldn't, and the feeling that there was yet another thing that was impossible for, was both frustrating and scary for the girl who had spent most of her life trying to be the best.]

This is depressing... has anything good happened lately?

[She mumbled awkwardly.]

[samantha_grey]

[Almost nothing. Samantha had been a wreck lately. She'd been relying on her friends for shared comfort, barely getting any work done and had briefly forgotten her kismesis enough to fight with him in the library. There was so little to be happy about, especially as more and more this felt like a pointed reminder that they had to act...]

You walked through my door. I'm going to call that a pretty good thing right now, Asuka. [She leaned in a little, offering a nuzzle with her forehead.]

[splendid_solitude]

[Asuka returned her partner's affection in kind, though her actions were still a bit off due to her own inexperience, it was a bit less so then the last time they had been together.]

I try my best. [She tried to laugh.] But seriously, it's nice to be over here for me to.

[samantha_grey]

[When the affection was returned, she scooted in, one of her hands curling up and wrapping around the smaller girl. She still felt pretty awkward about it all, but at the same time, it was a lot easier not to think about things when she could focus on something else.]

You don't have to try hard tonight. You're a diversion on your own. I've... needed that.

[She closed her eyes, breathing in slowly. Part of her felt a little awful. It wasn't exactly the most emotionally stable moment to be cuddling, but it felt good.]

[splendid_solitude]

You know that always be here if you need me, I mean I can't do much but I can listen for awhile at least.

[Asuka kissed Samantha lightly on the cheek. It was quick, as if she chose not to linger on purpose.

[samantha_grey]

[She leaned into that little kiss and brushed her lips up against Asuka's cheek. She was far more open with her affections right then, though she wasn't going to push if she shied away.]

Honestly, your company's as good as talking, but do you want to talk about something?

[splendid_solitude]

I just...[Asuka whimpered softly.] I hate it here. I want to go home already and get back to fighting a war I actually care about.

[samantha_grey]

[That made her fingers grip tighter. Samantha was struggling with all of the memories she'd lost, the people she had lost that she couldn't recall. The thought of losing another bothered her.]

Am I terrible for not wanting you to go?

[splendid_solitude]

Samantha...

[For once in her life, Asuka felt bad. She really did like Samantha, but she had built her life around being a pilot and couldn't imagine a world where she didn't spend a good portion of her life in the cockpit of a giant robot. Thus, If forced to choose between the two, she would always go with her Eva.]

I don't think your horrible for thinking that.

[samantha_grey]

[Samantha had plenty in her own world to take care of as well, things that she'd made peace with, people she cared for. However, she'd gotten close to people here, and she planned to hold fast to those memories as long as she could.

Having a long lifespan could change one's perspective at times, though... she did understand in a way. It just wasn't a good day to think that way.]

Thanks. I just... right now, I don't like the idea of losing you and forgetting ... well, this.

[splendid_solitude]

Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere for now. And as long as we're here we can do stuff like this as much as you want.

[And a short hug on Asuka's part.]

[samantha_grey]

[She hugged back, nuzzling a little and sighing.] You'll get to go back to the war soon enough, Asuka. Go save the world, and right now you can just... well, do stuff like this.

[Yeah, that definitely didn't come out awkward as hell...]

[splendid_solitude]

I can work with that, I think. And besides, I'm there best pilot, so it isn't like there going to save the world without me or something.

[It was awkward, but what about this relationship wasn't? Asuka nuzzled back, for now she would try her best and anchor herself with the little moments like these. It was all she could really do.]

[samantha_grey]

No, it isn't. [Samantha kept her eyes closed and breathed in a little. It was easier for her, right then, to keep them like that. The darkness had a way of being comforting after a fashion, and Asuka's embrace was far from smothering.]

Is there anything you'd like to do?

[splendid_solitude]

Could you just...[Asuka's voice became small and meek as she spoke.] hold me for awhile?

[samantha_grey]

[Samantha's response was to curl in more tightly. Her arms snaked around Asuka's body and she slid one of her legs over so that she could try and get into the girl's lap. The scent of sulfur grew a little while her tail lashed with a more animated motion behind her. Keeping her eyes closed, she shivered and nodded.]

I'll stay here as long as you want.

[splendid_solitude]

[Asuka was quiet and did little to resist Samantha's advance, allowing her partner plenty of room to do as she wished, for the sensation of having another person so close to her was sightly intoxicating to the young pilot and loosened her inhibitions in a way that their prior makeout session had not.

Perhaps it made her recall the days of her youth, when her mother had still loved her and call her by name, or reignited the feelings of her first clumsy crush at the young age of fourteen. But either way, she liked the feeling and could lay forever in the demon-girl's embrace if allowed to.]

Thanks, I appreciate it. [She sighed contentedly]

[samantha_grey]

Any time.

[For Samantha, it was a lot more of those clumsy romantic leanings that were involved, but there was at least the comfort of someone this close to her. She didn't permit it often, and she certainly couldn't have it with Eridan as a rule. Her hands didn't move much, but they did shift around on Asuka's back as she nuzzled there.]

It's good for me too, you know?

[splendid_solitude]

Well good, things can't always be about me after all.

[Asuka laughed as she nuzzled against Samantha. She was definitely feeling better then when she had first left her apartment.]

[samantha_grey]

But they can involve you, like now.

[The returned affection made Samantha let out a small sound almost like a purr. She could be rather cat-like in her behavior at times. Pressing in a little, she felt her eyes flutter and she whispered very softly.]

Can I... kiss you?

[She didn't want to push it. Even she knew that neither of them was in a good spot for this emotionally, but she wanted to at least ask.]

[splendid_solitude]

Er...just for a little bit, ok?

[Asuka half spoke in her typical hesitent fashion. Anything was better then thinking about the fact that she had forgotten half of her life over night.]

[samantha_grey]

Okay.

[She didn't remind Asuka that she could stop her anytime, hoping that she knew that. For her, it was just as much the same sentiment as it was her libido. As soon as her lips pressed to the red-head's, she could focus on something that was different from forgetting her mother. Her hands could find things to do other than fidget.

It took her mind off of those things, and she hungered for that ability to no longer worry about all of this nonsense. Just once in her life.]