You really want to hear that?! Agh, OK... I guess I have to spill it then.
[Asuka took a deep breath and recalled another part of her troubled youth with a rather unpleasant look on her face.]
When I was a teenager I always thought that I'd hook up with some hot older guy or something. I thought I was to good for anyone my own age. I mean I was, and still am, the best at what I do, but back then I was a complete jerk about it.
mmm, you should look in the mirror sometime though. Even if you are the older one, we don't look like it at all. I'm surprised nobody's accusing me of robbing the cradle here.
[she snickered and leaned in, nipping an earlobe and closing her eyes.]
I could imagine it a little, though. Some lanky, good-looking guy for his age dangling you on his arm like his arm candy.
You don't have to remind me that I look like a fourteen year old. I get enough crap about that back home and when I first got here. A lot of people confused me for a teenager when I first arrived, but I've set most of them straight by now.
[Mostly with angry yelling and other unpleasant conversation.]
Maybe when I was a kid! Now though? I can't really see that happening. But do tell, what did you dream of as a little girl?
heh, well, when I was young and just with my mom, I would sometimes imagine that she was an evil witch like in the stories, locking me in a tower. It was just in fun. I really loved my mother, after all. But, I imagined some knight would come along in a white charger and take me away.
Thing was I always imagined I didn't have the wings or horns. Fairy-tale princesses weren't supposed to look like the bad guys. I... kind of lost them with "True love's first kiss." Gods, it was silly.
Seriously? I never would have pegged you as the romantic type. Yeah that sort of stuff is silly, but you were a kid and I think it is honestly sort of cute.
It's nowhere near the same thing and I'm no knight, but I'd take you for a ride in my Eva if I could.
[This was Asuka trying to be romantic. It was none to subtle, but when was anything Asuka did?]
Oh that died a hard hard death after my first kisses, trust me. [She sighed and shook her head, not really wanting to share those stories.] When I actually started being... active, it was hard to be romantic about it in the say way. I guess it was a little cute though.
[She smirked at her, her voice amused and pleased.] You know, I think a giant robot or a motorcycle would work in a pinch. Sweep a girl off her feet.
It might be a little hard to pick someone up for a date in an Eva though. Those things are about 130 feet tall, so it might be hard to get you in there in the first place. But if we could get it to work, the view is amazing! The world just looks so different from that high up.
[Asuka's expression was one of excitement and she seemed to bounce a bit as she spoke. There was little that made her happier then speaking about her Eva and how amazing a pilot she was.]
There is the whole thing about filling the cockpit with LCL and then there is a chance that having two people in the there at the same time may throw off the computer systems, but I'm sure it'd be worth it in the end. Even if just so that I could show you what I can really do out there when I'm not stuck on uselessly on the ground.
That... would be a little interesting. You link up mentally with the systems then? Would that mean we were sort of sharing our headspace a little inside of it if we were together?
[She looked at her curiously. The look was a mixture of arousal and nervousness. The idea of it was both simultaneously very attractive as a bonding method and a little scary considering her issues.]
I'll let you in on a little secret...the Eva, they're alive. They were cloned from the first Angels that showed up nearly thirty years ago and kept in check by mechanical restraints. As long as they don't go berserk we can use them as tools, but they're just as dangerous as the Angels if unleashed.
[Asuka sighed. Why did her world sound so crazy when she explained it to others?]
There is some mental connection going on between us and the Evas while were piloting though. And if you go in to deep you run the risk of losing yourself entirely. But to answer your question, you'd see some interesting stuff if we were in there together.
My head is a scary place, though. I'm not sure you'd want to see it.
Your people play a very dangerous game, Asuka, and putting you right in the middle of it isn't exactly kind... but I've seen a lot of things done because there wasn't an option.
And trust me. I think both of us would see things we weren't really prepared for. My head has its share of nightmares. I'd like to think we could deal with it, though. Knowing they're there helps.
Maybe someday before we get both go home, I'll share that stuff with you. It won't be the same as having you in my Eva with me, but I'd still like to talk about it before its to late.
[It'd be a good way to finally air out a few things before leaving. It might even help her mental state to talk through the darker parts of her memories.]
We could, yeah. I can share some of mine if you really want to hear it all. I've had some time to help with it, but still... it would be good for us to know more about each other, even the unpleasant things.
I wouldn't mind, honestly. Like you said it'd be nice for the both of us to get to know one another more, up to and including the depressing stuff.
[Even Asuka could sense this was getting a bit to serious, so she will move in a bit and attempt to steal a kiss. There had been enough talk of dark and depressing things for one night.]
[Samantha was all too willing to yield to the kiss, pulling at Asuka and starting to lean down on top of the couch with her. Part of her wondered at times if Asuka ever felt smothered by her affections and constant presence, particularly as they were living together now. Part of her privately suspected that Asuka wanted that sort of overwhelming sensation a little bit.]
[Asuka had been denied herself any sort of physical attention for nearly half her life, it was only natural that she would over indulge now that she had access to a nearly unlimited supply of it.
Following Samantha down, Asuka nodded shortly in the positive.]
[And considering what Samantha was, she was all too willing to shower Asuka with a nearly endless supply of that physical affection and attention. She smiled and kissed her on the cheek before starting to weasle out from under her and stalk towards the bedroom.]
Well alright then. It's kind of funny. Sometimes we seem to be sharing a brain, just a little bit.
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6/10/14 01:03 (UTC)I don't think either of us is really that good at "Not worrying about it," but thank you Asuka. I appreciate it. It has been good... really good.
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6/10/14 01:39 (UTC)[She nuzzled against Samantha again. Happy, sort-of normal moments like these were rare, so she wanted to enjoy it as much as she could.]
Same for me. This isn't what I pictured my first relationship being like, but I still don't think that I'd ask for something different like ever.
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6/10/14 01:57 (UTC)[She giggled some and smirked at her, cocking her head some.]
You tell me, and I'll tell you. It's kind of embarassing.
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6/10/14 02:08 (UTC)[Asuka took a deep breath and recalled another part of her troubled youth with a rather unpleasant look on her face.]
When I was a teenager I always thought that I'd hook up with some hot older guy or something. I thought I was to good for anyone my own age. I mean I was, and still am, the best at what I do, but back then I was a complete jerk about it.
[She sighed.]
I never thought I'd end up being the older one.
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6/10/14 02:12 (UTC)[she snickered and leaned in, nipping an earlobe and closing her eyes.]
I could imagine it a little, though. Some lanky, good-looking guy for his age dangling you on his arm like his arm candy.
Mine's even sillier though. You won't believe it.
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6/10/14 02:24 (UTC)[Mostly with angry yelling and other unpleasant conversation.]
Maybe when I was a kid! Now though? I can't really see that happening. But do tell, what did you dream of as a little girl?
[Asuka smirked wickedly.]
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6/10/14 03:23 (UTC)Thing was I always imagined I didn't have the wings or horns. Fairy-tale princesses weren't supposed to look like the bad guys. I... kind of lost them with "True love's first kiss." Gods, it was silly.
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6/10/14 03:51 (UTC)It's nowhere near the same thing and I'm no knight, but I'd take you for a ride in my Eva if I could.
[This was Asuka trying to be romantic. It was none to subtle, but when was anything Asuka did?]
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6/10/14 04:28 (UTC)[She smirked at her, her voice amused and pleased.] You know, I think a giant robot or a motorcycle would work in a pinch. Sweep a girl off her feet.
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6/10/14 04:49 (UTC)[Asuka's expression was one of excitement and she seemed to bounce a bit as she spoke. There was little that made her happier then speaking about her Eva and how amazing a pilot she was.]
There is the whole thing about filling the cockpit with LCL and then there is a chance that having two people in the there at the same time may throw off the computer systems, but I'm sure it'd be worth it in the end. Even if just so that I could show you what I can really do out there when I'm not stuck on uselessly on the ground.
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7/10/14 19:28 (UTC)[She looked at her curiously. The look was a mixture of arousal and nervousness. The idea of it was both simultaneously very attractive as a bonding method and a little scary considering her issues.]
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7/10/14 21:59 (UTC)[Asuka sighed. Why did her world sound so crazy when she explained it to others?]
There is some mental connection going on between us and the Evas while were piloting though. And if you go in to deep you run the risk of losing yourself entirely. But to answer your question, you'd see some interesting stuff if we were in there together.
My head is a scary place, though. I'm not sure you'd want to see it.
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8/10/14 17:50 (UTC)And trust me. I think both of us would see things we weren't really prepared for. My head has its share of nightmares. I'd like to think we could deal with it, though. Knowing they're there helps.
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8/10/14 18:17 (UTC)[It'd be a good way to finally air out a few things before leaving. It might even help her mental state to talk through the darker parts of her memories.]
How does that sound?
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8/10/14 19:38 (UTC)[Even Asuka could sense this was getting a bit to serious, so she will move in a bit and attempt to steal a kiss. There had been enough talk of dark and depressing things for one night.]
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9/10/14 15:25 (UTC)Do you want to go to bed?
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9/10/14 17:36 (UTC)Following Samantha down, Asuka nodded shortly in the positive.]
I'm ok with that.
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10/10/14 02:37 (UTC)Well alright then. It's kind of funny. Sometimes we seem to be sharing a brain, just a little bit.
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10/10/14 04:25 (UTC)That just means you really get me. Congratulations, not many people have managed to pull that off.